y can't i just let it go???

2008-09-12T05:08:00.000+08:00

hmm right after project i went jeremy house for dinner. seriously his mum is realli a good cook la. she make laksa for us. there are total for person tat went to his house r .... mi, paul, gerrick and one more i forget his name le. i think tat his meimei's son damn cute la... too bad i don hav his photo if nt i will post it here.

2008-09-12T03:45:00.000+08:00

after project i went down to marina square hopping to change my wrong batteries for e right ones which i brought it during e suntect fair.don ask mi y they give mi e wrong batteries , i din noe i had given e wrong onces till i reach hm.hmm after going down they told mi to come back 2molo for e exchange . i was about to go work when jeremy sms mi , so i went n meet him for a while be4 i went work.his friend paul also with him and we all ended up taking photos.

2008-09-11T05:01:00.000+08:00

is another clubbing night . this time round no more DBL O . instead of DBL o we went zouk. this time round hell lots of pp go on tat dae. gt siow ting sec sch friend, my friend total about 15 pp. tats consider alot. i guess this might be e last time clubbing for this month. i had to stop all this le.it is so unhealthy. i wan my health back.sommore thing going off next wk. so there also isn't much time left.nvm right now enjoy 1st casue i realli veri stress about my project and 2molo still ned to go back e stupid office for project. KELLY just bear with it . it will be over soon.

2008-09-10T04:46:00.001+08:00

my class chalet has finally ended all e 3 daes 2 night i had been sleeping all e while la.. without knowing that i slept 12 hr for e 1st night and almost 8 hr for 2nd night. i am realli pig a word to describe myself.haha. we realli had fun for those daes and that now then i now there is this programme 'the noose' showwing on channel 5. i am damn sua ku la. nv watch this programme before k.this is the 1st time in my life la. wa.. talking about e chalet it is realli funny i think back also laugh marcus go catch toad when he sobber .

huihui: jonus y u keep the bottle???
huihui:u wan to keep it as a souviner izzit???
jonus: i always keep de ma...
huihui: u keep e bottle for wad??? to remember tat u drink onli 5 cup then u sobber liao izzit???
ALL: laughing away

2008-09-07T04:38:00.001+08:00

hoho .. i work straight again. but this time round i am damn contented. i gt a chance to meet up hui ling n yen ting they all . it is ladies night again, and all we have to do is to sit down drink and enjoy e fun. NIGHTs without guys. it so cool la. mid autum is coming and we don hav a chance to meet up casue i gt work and yen ting is busy with her sis wedding. all of us r nt free. when will be our next meeting??? nobody knows. haha and 2molo will be my class chalet i am dman looking forward to it la...

2008-09-06T04:32:00.000+08:00

we went foodfair 2dae after work, and tat we went xin wang cafe for supper. hmm coming tat this is my 2nd time in my life to take a NR back hm. it has realli been a long time since i do tat.after i took NR back i went and look for han cheng and shindy. as usual we slack at shindy hm till one pt of time i cannot take it and i went back hm 1st. it all beacause of work la, if nt 2molo i can sleep till late.

2008-09-04T04:22:00.000+08:00

it clubbing time... we went DBL O for party and it is realli fun man. so mani pp of us went this includes, mi, siow ting, hui ling, su mei,bob, gek hing and james. i think every now and then we come here onces la. going to be thur regular here le. we drink waterfall and guess wad we r all nt drunk. e onli thing is tat i am too tired to meet up my company pp 2molo. i am so tired la... imagine u hav to wake up aound 9.30 for project , u think le also will feel sian about it.

2008-09-03T04:16:00.000+08:00

this is e final dae of our presentation... haha.. we whole group of 5 finally get a chance to sit down n do our project.. it is so rare sia.u could hardly c jonus here, but he is realli here . wad does tat mean??? he don MIA??? no no he is just begin scared tat he will kanna remove from e project and tat our project in charge had alreadi warned us about e important of this project . some time he just simply cannot be bothered. but when he do things he can realli do veri well..

2008-09-02T04:11:00.001+08:00

ever since i have a digital cam i will start to write blog everydae as i will recall wad i did in e pic... 2molo after our project in sch i went off with huihui to marina square for shopping.as usual we walk around and like feel restless as 2molo we ned to present e actual project to e company. do we hav enough time??? e ans is nope... haha but i insist on finishing it by 2night n i guess i don ned to sleep animore.

2008-09-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

wads sia... we realli gt nth better things to do.... i went chinatown with hui hui n and we keep on shop around like nobody business...haha after tat i went hm to meet thing to go for some seafood. and in fact we took alot of pic over there. when there is a chance to upload photo i will upload and let u all c... haha...

2008-08-23T04:42:00.000+08:00

is time to blog again, this time round i will have to write about stuff that i did over this pass 2 wk. firstly i will start off with work.. i am sick of penny black , not becasue of the work but more to a person there. i shall not mention names. talking about job hey i gt another job is at serangoon there it is much nearer to my hm. hmm basically i don understand y i had to work so mani job , but realli...i am so boring.. and one thing tat came to my mind is that i just relized that i begining to walk out from depression. it took mi nearly 3 years and i still strugling. pp might nt noe what i might be doing pass 3 years but is realli a hard time because even my parent don realli noe n they don realli care. if u noe mi few years back n right now is totally diff. i lost my smile leaving behind my fake smile and i might hav diff character at times. i realli don wish to drag it animore , i wanna recover soon. stop wadever nonsense n move on.

2008-08-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

i am damn busy this wk and that i just had my 1st paper yesterdae . i tot i will fail but when i get back the result i am shocked. can u imagine that i fail my mid sem and i ned alot more to pull back and equal up the score??? yes la, i finally clear my module and that it wasn't tat bad after all.

i went clubbing with ming xin , alicia, sharon and jos at DBL O. it was really a crazy night but somehow or rather feeling abit uncomfortable . i din went hm straight away, instead i went alicia hm for a night. i tot i will sleep till afternoon but i wake up around 9am . i slack till late afternoon and decided to go back scg for fyp. i went hm and change into shorts and quickly head off to train station.

i am late now, but went i on my way someone call mi.. haha. so i just meet them for a while. we talk about alot alot of stuff happened last time.

topic that we had talk about:

1. they still remember last time when someone send mi hm i run to my friend hm and cry>>>>>
kanna laugh by them ....

2. how do u think of mi???

2008-07-25T12:25:00.000+08:00

i think that i am just being lazy to update my blog. well i keep on hav some thought running through my mind telling me to earn more $$ for my trip. if i were to earn $$ it means that i would hav to scarific my time and that i would nt hav enough time to acc most of my friends. compare to levis, penny black gives mi more space to breath in term of shedule. now i will nt hav to work for 3 or 4 daes. recently i went to cucci and bubbery to browse through their design and i found that i actually like some of the design. guess wad ??? i gonna ask ting for DFS stuff purchase le. haha.

2008-07-03T11:38:00.000+08:00

wed is time for mi to meet my levis pp... oh... we going town now...haha... after 1 dae of sleeping i still feeling tired just don noe y... i brought a dress from zara and that is realli realli cheap... is as low as $29.90 .and i visited hebal life and guess wad??? i brought it for $70 for meal suplement. after puchase i feel that am i wasting $$. haha wadever it is i shall jut try out e product be4 i made conclusion.

2008-07-01T11:27:00.000+08:00

is tuedae time, and my mind getting out of control. i just came back from my training and tat it is killing my leg. i shall now proced on to how my running programe goes.

1st : slow jog around e track and come back do 5 push up.
2nd: after doing push up, run 300m and spin 100m
3rd : come back do ball handling, run 200m and spin 200m
4th: after run come back do 5 sholder pass each side, run 100m spin 300m
5th:......., spin 400m
6th:........,run 100m spin 300m
7th:........, run 200m spin 200m
8th:........, run 300m spin 100m
9th:........, run 400m

tats all....

2008-06-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

as usual , i still late for 2daes lesson... i onli went sch for 1 hr lesson then after that went out to acc shu jia to dfs for interview... now she finally gt e job . a job for $7 is more then enough compare to mine. penny black is realli tiring like hell and most importantly they are too irrating.
after acc shu jia... i went watch movie with hua xiong . shao lin girls is realli damn stupid. if u gt a chance better don watch , just go for a more exciting movie.today is realli a tiring dae i hav to went li ying birthdae to count down with her and my jie mei, till 2pm then i sleep. damn tired la...

2008-06-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

is time tat i ned to play around diff job... my best friend ting intro mi job in penny black which is earning 7.50 per hr????although it is higher then levis but e feeling is totally diff... i think feeling abit lost in e way...i now learning alot of diff like diff wine and bear. tats alot more to learn n i feeling realli realli lost.. mabe i just a newbie???but when can i get over it??? 2molo going batam lo.. wa haha

2008-05-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

losing faith in levis ???? i guess so... i hate verbal... no more verbal pls...i hate last min thing n i onli left 3 daes to end off my levis life.. should i sae i will hav more rest or should i sae i will feel bored after losing my job.. aniway i gone for ck interview and still waiting for answer.. meanwhile i still checking out other job...i am tired cause this few daes i have been talking on e phone till late...hai full of regarts n now then i relieze tat all alot of things had happen through out this few month... good bye once again...

2008-05-22T03:22:00.000+08:00

trying to save ourself??? ain't we walking veri near e bridge???we are all trying to balance ourself but soon we will be push down to e bridge. sometime when you sae things although it is nt mean but it sound hurtful to some one else. staying in RC make mi think of alot of things, did i make a wrong move at e begining??? i don't think so...staying there is just like another J8 where u don even hav to care about wad other pp sae. wanna outcast mi rite??? go ahead n jolly well fuck off can...

2008-05-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

world is cruel but i believe it is fair . y izzit those pp who is fat n ugly don stand a chance to participate in normal conversation??? or rather often outcast by pp. i just feel sad for them onli, tat include myself. i feeling so down but one thing tat motivate mi is e $$ haha. i now wanan take care my my family then will start love him more n more. my aim is to get slim n earn more $$ to buy wadever i wan... tats all... no more emo... can't be bothered and i won cry over them animore...

2008-04-30T14:01:00.000+08:00

is pay day... shh... i think i gt extra pay haha... hmm but i need to c e pay slip before i can spent it ... oh... last fri i went m.o.s with huihui they all..enjoy alot but at a same time feel tired because i gt work on the other day. i updating my blog in sch and somehow or rather i feel so boring in class. tats y i tend to update my blog either in sch or at hm. oh... ya i going down for an interview with jonus huihui they all .. feeling excited but at same time gt to think of wad to wear for tonight event . hmm we are going zouk 2night i think i goanna die cause i working full shift on e next dae.

2008-04-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

just came back from town, i feel so tired haha.i actually wanan work one but end up i went out with hui hui jonus n shuan.i am suppose to meet hui ling they all but due to some circumstances they cannot meet mi end up i went town to stroll around town with huihui. i ended up reaching hm about 10pm. i relised that i had been reaching hm quite late past one wk.. i guess next time i had no time also becasue i need to work alot be4 i go back to training. haha

2008-04-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

is another boring day.. i just found out that previous dae's post is nt up there. hmm i waste my whole evening to stay up for that training damn... it was cancel due to poor attandance again.some time realli can't be bothered lo... feeling can... 2molo i gonna go out with huihui then after tat li ying they all... it has been long since we met each other , i wonder how r they??2molo is a short dae where i onli ned to go sch for 2 hr and i'll be free... hoho... my msn nick sound abit weird but it is quite true. wad if one dae u found that u no longer love him? haha 2molo i will still continue e topic.. i wanna sleep le gd night

2008-04-17T23:14:00.001+08:00

i am late for lesson again. haha i reach there is like 11am then end up teacher sae mi lo.but who cares... right after class i went scott to meet jeremy to let him sign my book .. shit man if i had let him sign i won hav come back. damn it.. i went scott just nice clash jeremy break time so we stay at mos lo. then after tat i brought chocolate for him. after his break time i went look for jenny n she also wanan go for half n hr break so i just acc her lo. e rest of e daes i was acc all of them for break.. haha.. how i wish i just punch in n work there. haha hmm well end up i stay till their closing n went back with jeremy and jenny. e 2 double J

2008-04-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

2dae will be my first daey @ RC.. starting i feel a bit weird but at e end of e daes i am still o.k... haha... i did cry again because i suddenly cannot take it again becasue of e supper premium . she bought e jeans at 299 n want mi to ater e lenght she assign but i think too short la. is like an ang mo so tall n yet e gf wan him to alter 37 inches, is like so short la. end up i give him 39.5 inches. i am damn stress lo, but i try to maintain just went toilet n everything will be fine. i just don noe y recently i like to cry so much .. wad e fuck la..

2008-04-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

just feeling boring again just came back from town n singapre flyer...it is damn nice lo... it much taller then our falt n wads more each cabin can occupied up to 28 person. mi huihui jonus n shuan just sat near e performing stage .... e performance is great... hai 2molo will be my 1st dae offically working in RC. i had no feeling at all. now my target is to earn money n i won 'TENDER'. target at leaat 800 per month n i hav to save for taiwan trip be4 it is too late. i decided to work more full n run away from some stuff. although working is nt a best solution but it can occupied my time n don forget i still hav training. if possible my shift will be mon -training, tue mabe go out with friend or work 6 till close , wed 4 till close , thur training, fri afternoon if possible n sat sun full. i will hav to end here, if nt i cannot wait up 2molo. wa haha. aniway i will be late also... heng har in sch there is no counseling form. n fuck tat 3 counseling form... blog is e onli place when i can bitch about this ...n after everybody tender i will post e video on youtube.

2008-04-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

come on la... knn can...my life realli sux... can't just leave a peaceful life... now transfer to RC wadever la u happy can le... i can't be bothered alreadi, too tired to think of anithing... in life we must accept pp's gossip.. especially if u wanan talk to pp n just find tat there isn't a suitable person... n wads more i have to leave with fear tat i cannot get a suitable fyp project, n quarrel with gd friends... knn go ahead sae tat i drama queen la... go ahead spread e rumours tat i out of taka lo... just go ahead n sae tat i sensitive .. wadever suit you all la...mabe RC could be a place for mi to meditate myself .. thanks god there is no phone call saying tat u kanna counselling letter just because u refuse to go... thanks god tat RC is far from orchard n tat pp won enquire about you....

SHI HUI >>>> u deserved it la...
who ask you to be : so native
: so emotional
: so guai lan
: so childish

PP just go ahead n scold mi can... i deserved it....
from now on i learn to shut up n continue my life
you pp will nv understand how i feel.....

FUCK UP CAN!!!!!!!

2008-04-08T03:29:00.000+08:00

well.. just came back from spssc camp.. this is my 3rd camp in spssc.. haha..2dae as usual nth much.. i had to go work again... thinking back, i had miss quite a num of stuff this wk.. go camp like as if lost touch to e world.. damn it e teeth mark haven gone yet.. tat jeremy deserved to get scolding lo. how dare he bite mi.. n it has been more then a wk time y can't it just disappear??shit man.. i realli cannot be bothered lo..aniway my atatchment ending soon.. i will be back to my $7 life. haha PH gt 1.5 n tat don ned to follow those full timer sucky roaster.thanks god man.when sch start , i will back to my noraml life. normal life meaning i will still study la.. but will slack abit n tatat least gt more time then wad izzit now.ee... talking about gossip, this few daes don realli hav things to gossip..it is more to pp gossip mi lo.. haha heng 2molo working afternoon shift lo...if nt i will hav to wake up damn early man. alright. i will like to end of here .. is sleeping time...haha...hoho...

2008-04-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

1st dae step in taka boutique gt a veri strong feeling... i gonna face alot of problem next time..nvm it just begining but realli damn emo can...this year i gonna earn as much as $$ as i can... n study alot n train alot... i gonna back to my sch life... life sux now u noe.. no more tears can....

2008-03-30T02:41:00.000+08:00

i gonna leave taka girls.... athough i don bear to leave but do i hav a choice?? well.. recently gt alot of things happen in my life like quarrel with my friends n counter stuff... i gonna miss my counter real soon... i onli left with 2 daes... no more tear can??? to mi, count down can be realli terrible...i which i could just stay here a few more month...but time is realli running out...i am looking forward to my new team n wads more??? earn more $$ for taiwan trip...haha... i will earn $$ , study at e same time... haha...no more drama queen.

2008-03-07T03:50:00.000+08:00

i am back again. i saw my last post was like 25sept 07. which means i haven nt been blogging this 7 month??? the reason why i nv blog is tat i really veri busy and on top of tat i am very lazy to blog la. basically i have been staying up very late at night watching show. ya i realli gt alot of things to talk about.too mani things haha. starting from sept:

sept:
i went changi airport to celebrate birthdae with friends, e usual ones siow ting, hoki they all.. and this year i receive two watch.. haha thanks to wei yang, irish, ah mei, gilbert (levis watch) han cheng, shindy(addidas watch), siow they all jacket.. thanks

the rest will be lost of intercon which i don wanan talk about. and e night cyaling tat was on feb.. till now i am damn busy haha. pp always sae i busy , ya .. trying to make myself busy. i think i still thinking about past ba.. so sad...but nvm .. now i working in 7 -11 n levis as same time. although it is damn tired but it keep mi occupied. haha i am tired now. i update my blog frequently. haha

HAPPY WORKING

2007-09-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

i wasted one whole dae... i suppose to hav training 2dae but ended up training cancel somehow or rather i feel quite boring with my life now... suddenly don noe wad to do... haiz... 2molo lesson start at 10am.. n i think tat i gonna be late again...i think i just don care so much la...but no matter wad i must realli thanks a person who acc mi when i feeling up n down... thanks man... 2molo will be a better dae...

2007-09-24T02:00:00.000+08:00

1 month plus i hav been doing alot of things....n tat..it is like realli running out of time...but well... i start sch onli on tue casue i don hav ani sch on mon... but still i hav to go back sch for training..hmm i cannot stand it animore... i hope e competiton just end sasp... so tat i hav more time n space for myself... is quite hard for mi to breath also....

1stly: i came back from indo... e last wk of aug.. then i so stupid buy 3 dozen of donut... buy i quite enjoy e camp casue of all e buddies there... tis year nt so bad at least i am nt e onli girl in e group...
2ndly: i been wking non stop just to get more $$ after e holi...
3rdly: i went ice camp.... damn sad la... so disappointing sia..but i learnt to handle things in tat kind of suitation... n that quite a num of things happening in this camp... like food posioning n all stuff... ai ya... camp confirm will let u learnt alot of things... n well, i do treasure some of e moment la...thanks for those pp tat take care of mi when i in camp n nt feeling that well...
4th:my feeling r dead from e point of time... i just don seem to understand y u must contact mi nt in apporiate time...nvm i shall try to 4get u.. tats wad i told her...
5th...i slp now... in case i becoming more panda eyes....

2007-08-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

hmm 2dae had been a veri tiring dae i wake up about 9am and make a trip down to sp to meet james...we supose to meet yesterdae but then i went out with huihui... when i reach sp tat time is alreadi 12pm and i onli stay there for hr then mi n james decided to make our trip to nyp to study... it is realli tat crowded lo till we cannot even find sit there...but after some time we managed to grab a sit and settle down... we are veri ps lo... casue we are lost in e way when we wanna find e library haha...i am thinking since i alreadi at nyp i just call rui ( my ai ai) to ask her where she is...she told mi she still at hm lo.... haha but in the end she still make her way down to join us for study...jack lei...we din realli stay till 6pm casue we found out tat if without admin card we cannot go out... omg hai we hav both sp n np admin card but we cannot use it there...haha

2007-08-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

as sem test is coming veri soon... we make our way to kovan mac to study... at first i tot onli nic there but ended up more n more pp coming... pp like jason, elmer, shing choon, mic, wee yee come to kovan mac to study ... tats crazy... haha... but we did manage to stay there till 12 plus ?? i boring till i use jason phone to take pic...haha...well 2molo i going bugis with hui hui... to catch a movie i guess. .. hmm from last wed chalet till now i haven see her like almost one wk??? let hope 2molo i will realli enjoy myself... haha

2007-08-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

oh no ... it has been a month damn fast la... haha.. however i don hav e time to update my blog... so sad... hmm this whole month has been a veri stressful month...firstly polite.. haha which is kind of tired.. secondly i gt alot of project to be handed up... due date 30-7-07.. shit man... i actually gt alot of pic to put inside de... but.. hai... all my pic is gone... but nvm... these are some of the pic we took in polite...

2007-07-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

after one wk of mid sem test... i found out tat i fail quite a number of papers... i also don noe y...but last 2 wk i went shopping with mi ai ai they all... it was quite fun then we brought alot of food at katong hmm tell u a secret ... li ying finally hav bf le... wa... we went over to her bf n ... so sweet.. we even take a video.. hha..part 1 n 2... in hui ling hp....i am too busy to update my blog... but just hope tata i will come in often... to write smt on my blog..n view pp comment... haha

2007-06-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time since i blog... almost like 1 month plus?? i finally find at least some time to do my blog. i think is time tat i gonna change a new blog soon.for this past 1 month i nv bother to blog is because partly i lazy, secondly where gt time sia.tat dae chat with ai ai then i relised tat we both facing e same problem.but she let mi understand wad i had been thinking for all e while. 'SO NEAR BUT YET SO FAR' , this phase seem familar whenever i heard it, it remind mi of wad i been thinking so far.
beside this i think i kind of condem by this world, so wad if i fat, look like a ball??? does it realli matter???i am sad la, so wad??i noe compare last time n now i grow fater le, it make mi hurt even more o.k.fuck up la.. can give mi some space anot???pls let mi feel tat heaven is fair can??
actually fat is nothing de, i feel sad is how those pp condem pp..fucking wake up la, if one dae u are one of them c if u stil laugh at pp anot.. damn u...
lets nt talk about it animore, we shall just change a new topic man. sianz la 2molo no sch but gt gems. wad a waste man. i still consider wanna go anot..u think should i??? i skip 2 time le. if i nv go again i will kanna warning letter one.now it is raining outside. it seem like is a heavy rain pour which make mi don even wanna go sch just wanan slp at hm then wake up n study.my bed is calling mi alreadi.bb i shall realli end here

2007-05-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

2dae is my 1st time working at taka levis... to mi taka consider a new place casue i nv go there relief them...i din go sch for 2dae as i was having fever n i slept from last sun till now... damn... my head so pain la... i don understand la.. but i guess i ned long time to recover le...after work i head hm... my head damn pain la... i just fell asleep i think tat i nt going ani lesson this whole wk...just treat it tat i relax abit ba....

2007-05-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

it seem like 2molo will be e last dae tat i am working at seiyu j8 haha.. gonna transfer to taka mens le...i think is another new start 4 mi... haha but i kind of will miss j8... haha... cause of e pp there... n wads more e food there is cheaper then other places lo...i heard tat james will be coming to j8 omg... izzit a gd thing??? damn ....i just feel abit giddy now i think i gonna get sick man....no matter wad i wanna work 4 e last dae...

2007-05-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

this time round nt onli vera n mi... there's steven also...asual we went city hall again... i found out tat it has realli become a habit tat every after poly 50 , we will head our way to relax... damn... but i like to waste time in this maner ... casue i noe tat soon i won get a chance casue i going over to taka...anyway enjoy this 1st ... be4 i regert

2007-05-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

sorie tat i keep on neglecting e blog.... haha... i doesn seem to had time 4 tat... well this wk quite exciting anyway i went fishing yesetdae with e club pp i din caught ani but but club pp caught some... i stay with them till 4am then i went hm... partly is casue i meet siow ting go malaysia 2molo n i need to grab some sleep after tat i need to work... shit man so tired....i continue blogging 2molo i grab some sleep 1st

2007-05-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

we just finish our poly 50 training... haha...guess where i went ??? yap... i went out with vera after our training... it seem like from now on wed is my onli free time haha...we went city hall man... just as when we about to find a place to sit down... it started raining damn.... is so unfair la...but we just sit there treat tat there is no rain but soon e rain become bigger n bigger haha...mi n vera were reluctant to move around so we sit there 4 a while n go back... tat night i din realli went hm... but i just meet up chia chia bacuse we were told tat we had transfer to different places...i so sad la... cause i had been in this counter for almost a year .. and tat e pp here were quite gd.. which i think tat i nv regret coming.. most important my gd friend there... reshufflement just happen too fast tat all e part timer could take it cause we tot tat it will be onli e full timer will had it then one month later then we posted out... but this time round is different.. we get posted out 4 daes after our in charge has posted out... i just left one more wk....n i noe tat time will pass veri fast... damn y????? haiz

2007-04-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

hmm... i suppose to catch a movie with hoki they all but end up i nv go... do u noe e reason ?? firstly i was realli unhappy with my bro casue this morning i went starhub center with my dad and while we were transfering acc to my name we found out tat my bro own starhub $900 plus for this 2 month bill... this has seriously affected mi as we all under same acc... this acc is actually nt under my dad name this is under my dad's friend name... u might wonder why must i put under his friend name.. casue there is things tat i cannot explain right now... n tat now his friend had seriously affected by cancer and will die some dae.. tats y in order to protect my no...i must find ways to transfer tat no under my name... i had been waiting for 6 years .. this dae had finally arrived but it seem like i still cannot do anythig... unless my bro clear his $$....i don wan my dad to clear 4 him as $900 plus to mi is quite alot and tat i feel pain man... damn... i just found out tat my dad had help him pay his $700 bill be4... damn... y i din noe.... i raelli feel like scolding him.. cause he has cross e line... i realli feel so sad... i had been waiting for 6 year yet things still left undone... shit man... hmm... but one thing tat i felt more relax is ... i finally had my hm phone, and it has realli been 7 years since i had my hm phone... my friend all laugh at mi cause this is e first time they heard tat i had my hm phone... haha...it kind of nt use to it.... but i think e reason y i go apply is for my mum ... i noe tat some time when she is in singapore she feel so boring ... so if there is phone for her ...it will be better she can chat with pp and there no need to chat on hp animore....i guess i am tired now.. i ned a rest...i will continue my blog 2molo...

2007-04-14T03:06:00.000+08:00

hey pp... i noe is a bit late to post it.. but seriously... it is a time to write down some memories... 2dae just went sentosa with club pp... hmm nt all e year 1 turn up.. onli 5 pp... hmm is this consider gd?? wdaever... so long as those 5 pp enjoy can le.... i din realli join them till night i went work after tat.. damn... but nvm.. right after work .. i went durian... to meet su .. hafez..bryan..hui hui...yu yu..n some other... we were chatting till 12 plus.. then we wnet hm...

i might be too tired to blog.... i will blog 2molo...

2007-04-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel tat i realli useless... this is gonna be e 1st time pp help mi do all e stuff...i am seriously veri down... but wadever .. some things i will hide it in side my heart... i just went out with some of e freshies.. to play pool n had our dinner at ps...

just tell mi wad i have done wrong???
i feeling so left out...
i think i suffer from depression le....
ever since....
till now i still haven recover...y???
damn...
poly even worst... omg....mabe i nt tat improtant or something...
they keep laughing at mi...
omg...

2007-04-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

hey pp i realli back from e club.. actually i try to write something down here... but it seem cannot be loaded...i am down with bad throat and flu.. omg.. i lost my voice also.. haha... damn....i miss all my son n daughter... supperstar...pp...i miss e pp in this camp... some onli... haha... i saw e campers they remind of wad i am like time... haha... time raelli flies... i am year 2 le.... haha...i shall talk more 2molo i am tired... haha

2007-03-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

hmm spssc camp is getting nearer.. whenever a camp start i will anihow thing de... seriously i don noe y...i will always think of last year...i realli think tat i living in my own world in sch... laugh 4 e sick of laugh.. u think pp wil realli care...even if i die... i think i deserve it... but one think i just don understand is y must i lost it then i will start to treasure??? isn't it weird... i seriously don like teh pp...i am realli specking from e bottom of my heart...so wad i look like ball.. tat doesn't mean anithing....

do i realli care... i think i am crazy... this is e kind of fear tat i am facing every dae... hha...pls just kill mi... no wonder he always ask mi 2 face e reality... i now noe y le...2molo will be going back sch 4 enrolment again....i suddenly feel abit weird

2007-03-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

i see some spider web alreadi... i just lazy to blog la... seriously ... i off 2dae ... n i went alot of stupid place like .. sentosa, town n jurong east... simply with vera... i find tat i realli enjoy 2dae lo went sentosa,town and jurong... i now getiing to dislike going out in a big group.. casue normally i will kanna shoot... haha... but tats fine...now... my dear friend gt problem... wad is a mix feeling har??? wad sia... so chim... don understand la... aniway it seem like my blog reali extinct le...nvm..yawn... 2molo morning shift... then some more tue is e start of pre camp.... steady la... clear it once n 4 all....

2007-03-10T02:49:00.000+08:00

i just reach hm from gathering.... this is a 2nd happening night for e wk... haha... yesterdae i go mos and that din raelli drink alot onli jack daniel and long island.... long island i think is onli 10 % haha... hmm i drink but nt still o.k lo.. overall it suppose to be a drinking night but ended up a dancing night... heng e next dae off... if nt will be like last time die at e counter e next dae....hmm when i woke up is alreadi 3.30pm.. i follow ting go fetch e bro then i went semi with toad and shindy...go collect shindy's hp... at that pt of time there was a large croud at e counter... then...a man went up to customer service (sony ericsson).. and say he wanna send his hp 4 service, this is how e story goes:

man A
man B
counter 1 lady
cashier
counter 2 lady

man A: still can send my hp 4 service??
counter 1 lady : sorie sir we are close due to large crowd and there are still 17 pp...
man A: i tot is 8pm close ?? now onli 7pm wad... my sis told mi 8pm then close..
counter 1 lady: but now there realli long Q...
man A: i don mind waiting i wanan done this service my 2dae
counter 1 lady: sir unless u don mind waiting.. after 17 pp.. then it will be yr turn...so it will be 17 +1
man A : i fine with tat....

one min later...

man B: is e shop still open??
counter 1 lady: sorie sir we are close for e dae...
man B (angry tone) :i bring hm my hp but it still e same problem...i must get this done by 2dae... u all have alreadi wasted 3 of my daes

counter 1 lady then ask cashier to check her com wether still can pull in one more place...
e man argued...

man B:is nt 8 pm yet wad..
cashier: but my com sae is alreadi 8pm...

at tat pt of time is onli 7.15pm

counter 1 lady:unless u don mind waiting u have to wait around 17+1+1
man B: i have to wait lo...

2 min later...

man A walk up...

man A: i think u give mi a Q no la...if nt later veri hard to noe...
counter 1 lady: but sir our system is close tat y u have to use a manual one...
man A : i still perfer u give us a no la...
counter 2 lady talk to cashier : u get a stack of manual no from draw....

then the cashier give to e man A and man B for no...

we find that veri funny so keep laughting on e spot.. guan min zhen da... haha
but how they are going to deal with e rest of e pp from behind them is another issue...one word to discribe singaporean... kiasu (sacred to lost out)... all like to do things last min... haha... wadever... 2dae i seen tipical singaporen.. wa hha...
e above story onli for reference.... no harm... onli like to express my feeling...

2007-03-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed. some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed. some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need. i say love, it is a flower, and you it's only seed. it's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance. it's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes a chance. it's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give. and the soul, afraid of dyin', that never learns to live. when the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong, just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows, lies the seed, that with the sun's love, in the spring becomes the rose.

2007-02-26T02:29:00.000+08:00

i should have a countdown soon... counting down to e day tat i get my result...i working morning 2molo...wa haha... but it seem like i cannot find anyone to go out with... i think i shall make a trip down to ck tang to spend my vocher le... $20 dollar vocher raelli doesn't help much lo... i could sae u still have to top up money 4 e rest...hmm i off on tue again... haha... this time round i gonna go my aunt hm which is at tm there to pay her a visit... next wk raelli veri slack as i mon work (M), tue (off), wed (M) but going back office, thur (full) (going 4 setup), fri (A), sat (M) , sun (A)... alot of morning sia... but then ned to go back office...siazn.... recently i think i had been spenting too much le... this month i spent around $900 plus... omg.... i don raeli noe wad i spend on also... mabe clothes...?? or some other stuff... i think tat $900 i too much... my pay also don hav so much la... stupid... i cannot take $$ from my dad.... haha... smtime feel like taking but i alreadi 1 year nv take $$ from him le...if now take i will feel a bit weird...i should earn my own haha... but i realli find that e more i earn e more i spend... no matter wad next month i wanna go open another bank to deposit some cash in sop that i won spent much... and don touch all e card... haha.. dad pls don ask mi wad i wan.... thanks 4 yr kindness... i can buy myself... haha.... shh... don tell him tat cause i don wish to c him spend too much $$ on mi....if my mum noe tat i spend so much ... she will nag at mi...but lats make tis month a exceptional la... just one month onli... i promiss next month don spent so much... haha

2007-02-25T03:54:00.000+08:00

is realli long time man ... this 14 daes there is alot of things happening around mi... like during v daes...i work full ... and tat i get to contact with long lost friend.... can i sae is a blessing... i felt so enjoy man...hmm... i just feel veri happy tat out of sudden those long lost friend will contact mi back...well.. i could sae tat this past 2 wk ... is has been a busy shedule 4 mi... firstly on e chinese new year i went bak malaysia with parent to c my grandma... haha...after that i went to my friend hm 4 bbq... u might think tat i am enjoying myself but who noe wad will happen next... i just came to noe tat my second in charge had been reshuffle to another counter... which i realli feel so sad about it... and she is leaving end of this month.. tats onli few daes later... i was so shock to hear that...but wad to do... levis always do reshufflement.... i afraid that i could nt hold it animore... i would wan to work as much as i could be4 sch reopen.. casue i haven realli think of the worst case...do i realli have to leave levis????i think that tis is nt e main issue animore.... i had been meeting up with shindy they all.. haha... and that i meet up with some of my old friend...now is coming to e end of e month... getting pay soon... wa haha...hmm cannot realli spend animore casue who noe i might be leaving e company soon???next wk suppose to be a happy wk but then... haiz... is rather sad 4 mi as ila is leaving our counter y frankie transfer her away??? is time i meet some of the new faces...try to work with different pp... this pic is i took with shind when i went out with her

i realli dare nt face u...
whenever i saw u...
it remind mi of wad we are las time
but things start to change last year...
i also don understand y
an't we gd buddy???
i just simply don like her , let mi tell u this...
i am nt e onli one...
i nv saw such a girl lo...
she don think that we don noe that she talking about us..
pls la ... ask her to wake up her idea...
don be so childish...
wanna read my blog, just go ahead...pls don argue with us... YOUR comment is strictly nt allow... and yes is U...

this one whole chuck is specially 4 her...pls don defend her....

to: IRRATING f (i don ish to mention your name, it is too obvious)
if she can disappear ... it would be a gd deed for us...if nt i would just have to sae sorie u r total out of the circle...

2007-02-11T01:59:00.000+08:00

ya mabe i am right haha... i living quite o.k now... just finish my exam n i went out with hoki they all... hmm mabe i could just stick on with tis kind of life...u noe??? i realli spent alot of money tis few daes arond $500??? omg...i don noe y i spent so much $$ tis few daes... i spent on jeans, long sleeve shirt n dress.... i brought two dress which i think tat i won be wearing...hmm casue i think i too fat 2 wear le... but i just buy without ani consideration.. will it be too wasted??? but i onli noe tat i onli wanna enjoy my life now... haha.... without ani worries... right now i can do is to enjoy nth else... hah... my back is pain again... should i go c doctor???hmm i stil wondering.... hmm i don noe wad happen just hope tat everything is fine... haha may god bless mi... don write le... sleep soon.... haha

2007-02-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

my life is just another full shift 2molo... hmm i just reach singapore 2dae ... 2dae is my grandma birthdae haha...i brought alot of dvd as well... now i gonna sleep soon le... casue i feeling veri tired... n nt onli tired giddy as well...next sun is chinese new year le ba...hmm i din realli gt e time to chose chinese new year clothes.. haha.. mabe is e time i choing working also cause can earn more money... haha... this year i realli hope tat i should stop waste time...concentrate on wadever i wanana do... haha tats mi... thanks to those who help mi buy staff purchase....

2007-02-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

wu zhun so cute man... i love those comic boy... haha... they are just better then human... recently fei lun hai came to singapore with SHE haha.. but too bad i don have a chance to watch their concert...SHE is quite a sucessful band hmm... since i was a sec1 girl they have been there till now i alraedi 19 years old... omg... time files...recently my friend ask mi... wads e feeling of liking a person ... but for mi... i nt quite sure casue i nv have raelli had this kind of feeling be4..well... later i will be having dinner with my club pp... i don noe y suddenly there are dinner going on... but i am quite certain that should be a person birthdae ba... but i wasn inform whos e person onli...

ting i think u realli suay lo...tat person realli consider 'lan tao hua' haha... but don worry la... he won bother u animore... haha... even he bother u i will protect u de.... >>> sweet hor??? don feeling lo... haha there more to come..

2007-01-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

i began to question myself..... is tat my life??? or izzit i am just leaving deadly there...my exam are coming but yet i am still working... isn't it a time when all of us have to pull up our sock and start study?? y do i have to still stuck with my work?? u think do i realli have a choice??? hmm i am early 4 once... haha.. just to reach hm and watch my favourite youtube...hmm.. i have been watching youtube 4 past few wk... haha...i nt getting tired casue there's a lot of show inside...but my exam is coming... omg...

2007-01-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

have i been missing for weeks??? last update my blog is when 3 of jan... but now is alreadi 20 th jan. there are quite a number of things happen tis few wks. talking about from 3jan onward i wen for sport club chalet from 3jan till 5 jan. spssc chalet was actually a gathering for all of us, but it turn out to be a drinking session . haha just one dae after spssc i went shindy bf pub to drink. mi ting n vivian open a bottle of chivas. it was damn shiok lo... i think mi n ting drink alot... we manage to finish e whole bottle. we were damn crazy la.. follow on will be my ivp... i was sick during ivp so din realli get a chance to play much.... i was having fever and sore throat tis 2 wk... i donoe y i cannot recover... i just noe tat when ever i sick, it will be hard 4 mi to recover. well.... my major exam cmming le... lets work hard ba...i will have to end off now le...i am tired .. i promiss to visit u when i free k??? tc la..

2007-01-03T02:40:00.000+08:00

haha.. i have been missing 4 wk... n guess wat??? i think my life is realli full of excitment wahah... hmm i should start with how i spent my chirstmas...

chirstmas is a time when we gather with friends n family members.. every year without fail i will meet up with my old click... haha tis year round we went sentosa for count down... n even do smt stupid over there... it was also such a tiring dae as i been working 4 tis few wk n nv realli rest well...wats more i have to work e next dae n tats full shift... it almost killed mi but it din...unlike last two year we always have a taste of alcohol... but tis year it is such a peaceful time...n moving on will be a date with my dearest nb.a... haha... they were e cuties la..hmm wad i should sae is i hav nt been meeting them 4 long... n tis is e onli time tat i get a chance ... we went for steamboat n went amk for chilled out...basically my life is full of enjoyment... wahaha... after meeting with nb.a.... i went one of my club pp hm to stay...we went there to watch dvd haha... i then know tat i i almost forgotten all my childhood...but nvm... is gd thing tat i try to find back... haha... moving on next event will new year.. omg... we went east coast... it was crouded but i don think it is worst then orchard... haha..as usual we played alot of games using pokers.. hAha...is a new year but it seem vri unlucky 4 mi...i overslept 4 my work... n up kanna scoulded by frankie... e nv reali scold but onli sae...tis is more then enough le... e 2nd dae same thing happen i overslept again... omg...hmm i noe i went too far le... but still they din realli scold mi.. i feel so guilty about it...let nt mention it ani more...i hope tis coming years my life will be better... haha...

2007 wish...
1.my health is e most important
2.can bring my family for some dinner
3.spare some time for my friend instead of working
4. buy wadever i wan
5.i wanan slim down....i too fat le...
6.aim to get gpa 3 n above...
7.find my beloved ones soon...

2006-12-23T03:42:00.000+08:00

no more strenght to update my blog animore...hmm tiring... i just reach hm n is 3am... hmm i feel like vomiting.. n becasue i drunk... i raellli ne feeling well...
omg... 2molo ned to do another full shfit... god... can bless mi tat i can pull through this few daes.. tiring is one word tat i can simply explain...hmm... i hope some one can save mi... pls...

2006-12-20T03:28:00.000+08:00

i reach hm late 2night le...i went far east again... but now nt with ting.. is with hui lling they all...we jsut walk around n e most sad things is tat i have to go back to work at 4 something n tats tiring lo... but nvm at night time i went supper with Q n james they all.... yummy chom chom food damn nice la...u could nt expect tat most of us r so hungry tat we finish all e food...thsoe guys had 2 bowl of rice... haha...we did talk alot of crap haha... but too bad i gonna reach hm early cause i feeling damn tired... haha n one more thing i hope 2molo won reach... casue 2molo gt training... damn sianz

2006-12-19T03:19:00.000+08:00

hmm i went far east with siow ting... n met up dinner with my club pp... hmm actually wanna go hm to watch tv but end up... at ting hm planning chirstmas activities...haha... i hoping tat christmas will reach asap.. haha

2006-12-18T03:12:00.000+08:00

mon blue... wa haha... full shift again... hmm casue she have been taking mc 4 2 daes.. haha... but one thing is tat after working i go straight to chalet... haha...is nora n sharon birthdae...hmm quite a number of levis staft went... all those regular... hmm i so surprise to c him around.. no la.. just a passing remark... haha...hmm... i noe tat 2molo will be a tiring dae 4 mi as i will go far east with ting n i surely nt enough sleep de

2006-12-17T02:46:00.000+08:00

is another full shift... 2dae jenny take mc.. i think 2molo need to work full again....haha... but think positive... can earn more money..y nt... but tats nt e way also la..must think of health... haha....some more 2molo need to go nora chalet... i will die there... haha... but strange things is tat whnever u play... u won feel tired.. when it come to work or study...i feel so tired... haha... people are always so strange...

2006-12-16T02:45:00.000+08:00

todae is seiyu midnight sales...it is damn tiring lo...i work afternoon like work full like tat from 2pm till 12am... like no different... haha customer alot like siao... haha it is like a sardine place... hmm some more e next dae i gonna work full shift ... damn tired la..but wad to do... who ask mi chose levis....???

2006-12-15T02:44:00.000+08:00

we finally won e shield.. wa haha... we r e first club to get champion in all e 3 sport... hah.. 2dae perfrom nt veri up 2 my standard...but ani way we still win... haha after tat we went nic hm to torn till e next morning then we went 4 breakfast next morning... tats cool man if u can c most of them r living around jurong tat side came all e way to our area.. wahah... tis is a pic i took with one of our soccer boy... wa hah ... 10 & 11

2006-12-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

mi getting upset recently ... partly my mood swing becasue of intercon....i had enough of tat... hmm.. i can use my finger to count the number of times i get scolded during e match...athough we 3 sport get into final ...but we r still nt satified.... we wanna be e best out of it... lord... can u save mi... i am in trouble....tired.... n fustruted...i don noe y when time come pp start to give attitude.... pp like e "***" we don wanan talk to each other becasue of intercon... "P***P" also another person... scolding mi non stop.. i had enough of u...thanks... n lastly "****" n "*****" > stop yellling at mi... i don like pp to shout in front of mi... i am nt a dog...i will get angry de... although i often just smile...y izzit everybody is against mi...y??? because i am a person tat u think cannot be bothered??? or u think tat whether i die or wad doesn realli concerned u??well holidae coming... is best chance 4 mi to go relax myself...lord... most important thing.. bless mi gd health.. thanks... my health nt tat gd...omg

2006-12-09T03:29:00.000+08:00

hmm...i just came back from bugis... i went supper n drinking with my last time in charge... hmm although my face is a bit red.. but i still nt drunk... well i should sae tat tis is e 3rd fri tat i went drinking... izzit gonna be a habit tat every fri i went drinking with someone??... i don noe...i just being a bit confused tat all... i still had a lot of things still haven settle yet... haha like council month thing...hmm i gonna settle it once n 4 all...haha... oh no i working full shift 2molo...i hope i can wake up....let reali hope so la... anuway 2molo will be e last dae at promo... i will miss e daes working there... 3 wk like realli quite fast lo...ya 4get to mention smt... tat irrating guy sae tat i always sae him...haha... i was just playing with him...i just don noe y he gt e kind of look tat pp wanna suan him....i nt trying 2 provoke him... is tat it is just an entertainment tats all... haha.. boi ar... don take it to heart la...

2006-12-07T10:53:00.000+08:00

i am tired 2dae... i went training 2dae n tat keep on run alot during training... haha...after training i went kovan with shing choon they all 4 dinner... ops... is late izzit consider dinner OR supper??? i just noe tat 2molo i still have a lab test n tat i still haven realli study yet...but now i am still considering whether i should give up my sleep.... but i guess i sleep better cause e test i could just ask my friend 4 answer :p... 2molo i am working again... so sianz... but lucky onli 3.5 hr... but is realli damn tiring things.... but wadever i sleep in club till my working time haha so tat at night i still can stay awake to watch tv.... i still gt alot of vcd haven realli watch yet ... i think e vcd gonna rot soon as i had brought it for 2years n i din even touch

2006-12-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

i am quite unhappy with intercon 2dae... i also don noe y...i just feel tat i am damn pissed off...hmm seriously being a referee is nt tat easy...but i think some of us realli ned to attend anger management... to: i feel realli disappointed in u.... wake up yr idea la...i don like u 2 talk 2 mi like tat... is damn f*** up lo... i am angry... so don talk 2 mi 4 some time... let mi cool down a while....wadever if u saw my blog or wad...i just wanna let u noe...don always take things 4 granted... learn to give n take...blog is e onli place tat i can talk 2 ....i feel more comfortable to talk 2 it then to talk 2 u directly...i now feeling extremly down la...

2006-12-04T15:39:00.000+08:00

i am realli feeling damn tired lo....pass few daes i had nt been sleeping well enough .... like fri i went clubbing with ming yew gek hing they all...mos was damn crowded lo... i cannot even move...over there i could meet up with some of my friend.. pp from sport club n some other friend outside...hmm... i could sae my company's event realli sucessful... haha...there realli alot of pp...they earn till siao... haha....after clubing i went hm to change n come back 2 sch 4 inter con ... damn shiek la...haha somemore i ned to work after tat....luckily i working morning shif on tat dae... but still i went to meet hoki, karmen siow ting they all...we all damn siao la... we went changi airport to have our supper....i was too tired to talk n i actually fall asleep during our conversation...damn sian la... haha....

2006-11-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

i starting to hate him... ya is u...i don noe u trying to get close to mi , is just because u realli treat mi like friend or izzit because of "@@" thing... i like being make use like tat... pls don let mi feel tis way can??? pls make mi trust u more can?? i think we realli ned to cool down... i noe tat u r also nt happy with wad happen 2dae... is just a game onli.. y take it so serious.... hmm well... 4get it... from now on i give up on u... i realli hope tat we can go back to last time when we 1st met... e impression is totally different lo....

2006-11-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

hmm... i now gonna update my blog again.... somehow or rather i just cannot stay up late animore...i went to pat hm fri with some of our club pp...n we did some drinking... after tat we slp n try 2 rest well 4 our match on e next dae... but unfortunally we lost e match to sma...2pt... we were all siao la... don care them... now i over at bugis... damn gd sia... i just like e roster plan there.. haha...i gt morning shif...i just love there...i gonna slp le... gd nite...

2006-11-24T10:59:00.000+08:00

yes .. we did it again.... 2dae beat mit club in our captain ball... 49-24... we did well in our match ... although at first we were draw at times.. but we manage to over take them. this is wad we call team work... haha sat we will be playing with sma... sma is a strong team la... we saw them playing yesterdae is like they trash mm la... haha....after the match i went clementi eat with my club pp....

2006-11-24T10:56:00.000+08:00

i finally reach hm le... i just come back from watching bball match... 2dae heng gt hua xiong acc mi go watch e match if nt veri boring lo....the match is quite o.k la... but his team lost in the match. u guess who i saw 2dae??? i saw hong yuan n ming feng and chat with them.... and most of all i just miss my ai ai badly ..... she meet mi up and pass mi my formal wear...hmm i feel so bad 2dae as i left e council month event early and tat instead of staying there late i went to watch basketball match....but haha...nth much 2dae la... 2molo still gt presentation going on... n tat we 2molo we vs mit .... rite noe i still don noe their strenght yet...let hope 2molo will be gd la...haha

2006-11-23T11:28:00.000+08:00

2006-11-17T04:23:00.000+08:00

i will like 2 blog again... perhapes i still alot of thing tat haven realli sae out... hmm... 2dae suppose to go training.. but ended up at ting hm...slack... n now is alreadi 4am in e morning...n 8.30 i still gt one exam... n tats my last paper of e dae.... i just realised tat i haven complete alot of assignment 4 e-learning wk... omg... time is running short... i am tired... but i cannot sleep casue i noe tat once i sleep i won wake up later... haha... so i chose 2 sit in front of com... n try 2 recall wad i ned to do 2molo....
i am happy... do i??? i don noe either...at e rate tat i am going it seem like i hav 2 work 4 e rest of my life...i serious find tat i realli lost... i had been lost 4 more then a year plus...ever since *tat incident*....i am scared... realli scared... i like livivng in e darkness....pp might think tat i am those trouble free... but who will noe tat if one dae a joker break down wad will actually happen??? a joker itself will make pp happy but once he is sad who will noe??? does he raelli noe how 2 heal himself???
just ingore my blog tis time...i am basically talking rubbish...i realli tired le... but pls 4give mi... wad i do.. there is always a reason behind...i think tat i cannot just 4ever hide from everything.. so wad if i work??? is tat e life tat i realli wan???
sometime i just being navie rite???* all my gd bro will surely agree with tat*....i ned motivation...haha... i now blogging is from e bottom of my heart...e word which some time r hard 2 express out from mi... i could just write out... n make myself feel better...
lastly,my friend ask mi a question:
if a person has being contact u all e while, n he or she stop contact u... there must be a reason rite???she is once yr friend tat care about u... but some how or rather she suddenly feel cool towards u... wen she c u she doesn't seem 2 react or neither she even care whether u realli exist??? n sms also stop alreadi ... she just doesn't understand y....haha
my reply is....
i think u fallen 4 her alreadi.... if nt y will u be bother whether she concern 4 u anot....any friend can do tat also.. even i also sms u... but u won feel tis way also... y will u so care 4 a stranger like her???it is rather obvious lo... but i noe la... like tis kind of things veri hard 2 sae out from e mouth one... once u sae out... is hard 2 maintain a friendship... i noe tat like a person is even difficult 2 handle then a person who like u.. but friend think it tis way....sometime wen u like a person... doesn'y mean 2 hav him or her... is just let her be happy can le... tats e greatest happiness u can give her....

Hui will always be there....

2006-11-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

i just love elmo... wa haha... i went vivo yesterdae n tat i came hm about 11 plus.... omg... i almost 4got tat 2molo stil gt mst....i ended up gonna study till late night....luckily my exam paper is at 3.30pm... haha... i could just sleep later abit... haha.... i don noe y... i am so lazy lo... feel like staying at hm all e while... hmm well... 2dae e paper is just alright although i still make careless mistake....i just went e hu bazzar and saw tat hong zhang kanna dunk inside e water... it was fun... after tat i went work... n till now then i reach hm... sianz i don noe 2molo wanna go training anot.. hahha... casue i hav paper e next dae... omg...

2006-11-12T04:44:00.000+08:00

hey hey i just came back from a late night movie...izzit consider late night or early morning .... as usual i went out with royston ,siow ting they all...it was like damn tired la... but just don noe y it seem like a dae of 24hr is nt reali enough 4 mi....
one thing tat i wanna mention about is a scandal in sac.... omg...i had scandal???to my surprise, tis is e 1st time.... well... i can sae they had pick a wrong person to talk about...especially pick on someone tat is realli 2 e extrem tat it is realli impossible....how come they so careless... hahah...bleah...

It is realli joke of the dae lo...i realli hope tat they could just stop it.... nt saying irritating la... is... puke... ops...i am getting too direct le... haha...o.k la...i shall realli end here casue 2molo still ned 2 go work... damn boring sia....just give mi time to settle of all the things...yawn...is sleeping time

4.49am...i am here to sae tat i fall asleep on my desktop table
shi hui u damn lame lo...

2006-11-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

it has been one wk since i last blog.... i just being lazy at times... haha... i had been coming late 4 my lesson past few daes... n now e most enjoyable part of e daes is e-learning wk.... haha... now is e 2nd dae of e-learning dae n yet i am realli tat slack... haha...

oh i 4get tat yestaerdea i went 4 ice camp gathering.... was it realli call gathering???i think tat e attendant wise is like less then 20% la... hmm i ended up hang out with some of r year 1 camper...omg... failure... i should hav go out with ting they all...i regart lo....my throat damn dry now la... haha.... 1 2molo going back 2 sch 4 meeting... omg... tis wk like alot of meeting la...i realli ned 2 study le... *crap* haha...

i miss u

2006-10-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

2dae we just had our friendly match against cscc... alot of pp get emo over it... almost gt into fight....hmm...we both club hav fault la...but i still think tat y he must start 1st... aniway... we manage 2 pull back fred , nic n ryan... if nt.... smt might happen...2molo will be spssc vs mm... omg... haha... we must do our best.... haha

2006-10-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

blogging agian??? yes... 2dae wanna tell u tat i help out in Deee dae.... as a time keeper??? actually being a time keeper is nt so stress also... haha.... i saw mani of my friend there also... hmm...i din go out after tat ... instead i went hm...i reach hm araound 8 plus... tis is so early man... haha... but after tat i went out again... went 2 siow ting hm....n stay there till now still at her hm... wa haha...i notice tat tis few dae i keep on staying at her hm...
wahaha....MST coming.... omg... everythings gonna be fine

2006-10-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

hmm... i just reach hm... i wasted one dae working again.... haha.... i ove 2 enjoy but then hai 2dae is $9/hr lei... somemore is a compulsory shedule... sometime i realli hate e timing, but wad 2 do... i alreadi work 4 almost gonna one year le... yeah... but i realli hope tat they would transfer mi back 2 orchard area...it is near my sch n somemore u won be tat boring if u work there... haha... i miss e dae when i work at orchard tat time... hmm can sae i realli love it... but then now i transfer 2 j8 although slack ... but don realli like e place there as casue of some reason la...well... she don get a cahnce 2 c it... wahaha...2molo stil hav e stupid java lesson ... it is gonna drive mi crazy ... haha...lastly e inter con shedule is out .. yeah...i able 2 take off 4 e matches...

gd night everybody...
don miss mi....
wa haha.... tis is *evil* n crap

2006-10-23T03:24:00.000+08:00

hey ... i just don noe y i still awake now... is alreadi 3am... omg...btw just 2 write down in case i 4get... haha... my event was quite a sucess one... athough there might be some problem in between but tis doesn make tis event run unsecessfully.... hmm tis cycling let mi noe more of e pp... nt just those tat i noe... but also pp outside ..nt from any of e club pp... i just relised tat in tis council project ... let mi experience alot of things... like team work.. communication... n event in handling alot of important stuff...
well.... i had learnt alot nt just tis project ... but also get 2 noe how pp feel n react in certain ways...firstly i would like 2 thanks all e seniors tat guide mi through tis project...wen i ned help there's always pp to help mi... pp like yao qing help us solve transportation issue thing...evelyn e one tat always help us out ...of couse how can i 4get our dear stress king....choon wee??? lastly ... my beloved com member... u all e best.... love ya always...i think i too fortunate le....although it is tiring... we nv fail 2 help each other... tis is wad we call... team work

ops... i think i write too much le... anyway time to sleep....haha

i just wanna tell u tat i am far away from u ...
can u hear tat???
i am far away from u....
i also think tat we r avoiding each other

i am fine ... nv get injured in tis event...
i don realli ned u 2 ask mi whether mi knee is o.k ...
i think is time we go back 2 who we r....
i won call u... neither do u ned 2 sms mi as well..
just treat it as i am dead...
or u simply just don noe mi...
would it be better???
wenever i c u... my heart feel tat pain...
it seem like it is totally out of control

2006-10-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

i going back hospital tis few dae le.... basically is just 4 check up to c if i realli could play sports again....hmm i had been warn by doctor tat i cannot take sports tis year but.. who cares.... i am wad i am.... haha...i simply love it... i went eat with spssc pp... it was like damn nice... we all veri crap...

2006-10-18T01:12:00.000+08:00

is time tat i write in blog again... thanks man... u r e onli one tat i could talk 2...i recently quite busy with night cycling event....u noe how disappointed a person stop contacting u...we were once friend rite??? i feel tat i drifting away from spssc le.... i also don noe y...mabe cause of council project??? or mabe because of myself??? ya...i should stop those stupid act ... n return back 2 real life...from now on i will stop being so childish le...no more.....

i won wan 2 c u....
if i c u...
i will even suffer more...
in tat case...
i guess we shall stop contacting each others....
don't u think so???

2006-10-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

i just relised tat i hav been eating onli 1 meal tis fews dae, n tat e reason y i nv eat is either i 4get about it or i am too busy with my stuff... hey...i nt feeling o.k....i feeling abit lost now.... y???? y am i feeling tat low??? i think tat in poly realli don hav veri gd friend ... i tend 2 mix around... or sometime go work.... i simply feel tat without working i realli gt nth 2 do le...i realli tat stupid....i might be happy when pp c mi ... so wad?? they onli c e happy side of mi...i might be crying one side every night ... who noe??? e kind of feeling is weird...i don noe izzit i haven reali recover from last time or wad... history keep repeating itself....everytime wen i wanna step out of e dark side... i tend 2 fall back again... y??? i realli hope i could walk out confidently....realli... i tot i recover le... but i being negative again.... omg... no more le k... i love myself.... haha thanks

2006-10-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

i tired... no word can reali discribe my feeling...haha...firstly i will like 2 set a goal... hmm... burn all my fats ... wahaha....damn it... i think i grow fat le... sianz...haha.. 2nd... roy.. thanks 4 yr necklace... i receive le... i noe now u reading my blog... haha...fri we go find e bag k... wa haha... adidas on our way...i raelli don noe wad 2 write le...i am getting lesser n lesser things 2 write le... omg....

2006-10-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

i am tired.... haha...i think tat e number of time tat i blog is getting lesser n lesser le...i simply think tat i becoming more n more lazy le...hmmi hav been sitting in front of com 4 long hr...haha... my eyes r so dry lo..n somemore e haze rite is e most troublesome de....i cannot even breath lo.... so xin ku...

2006-10-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

hey... i am back quite early.... izzit gonna be weird ??? no la...i just wanna stay at hm...i being hanging out late at night 4 pass 2 wk... haha... some how or rather i think tat i reaali feel veri boring ... i don noe wad happen... pp just being abit cold towards pp... it is realli out of sudden without giving pp reason... mabe is because u nt in de gd mood ba.... i don noe?????? we c la...

2006-09-30T03:38:00.000+08:00

it has been one wk since i update my blog...well tis is e 1st wk of sch n tat i quite busy with some stuff out there...beside being busy... i also keep on going out 4 some celebrate some special occassion....guess wads e special ocassion??? yes u r rite.. i am finally 18... it seems like time hav been running too fast or izzit i seemly neglected too much stuff... wahah..but anyway... quite a no of pp send mi sms n even wrote mi testi during my birthdae...

26 sept
2dae e leson end quite early about 12pm... danny n jonus help mi n hui hui celebrate both our birthdae tis is e first time in life tat i hav friend e same dates as mi...so happy.. hmm well after going out with them i met han cheng n shindy 4 dinner...
27 sept... ben orgainse a small club gathering 4 my birthdae ... thanks him man...after celebration....i went meet royston n junyong go durain there sit n chat....it seem like i keep on celebrate my bithdae ... wahah
29sept....
2dae veri tired.. i keep on falling asleep in class...go sch like nv go....after 3 hr... i go slack n go work.... it is like i wanna sleep le lo...but then i hang on there as there is activity going on at night... tats wen i going 2 treat them supper...royston drove us 2 pungol part....

2006-09-24T04:27:00.000+08:00

2dae damn suay... i was ask 2 relief at isetan lol....becasue still o.k la... e pp there quite friendly .. n i saw one of my pri sch friend working as a cashier....nth much 2 discribe about my job as.... i starting 2 feel abit pissed off...but well.... i just reach hm as just now i went out with my click after work... i was shocked that he booked out.... n e coming month of oct realli realli busy by then.... i gt alot of things ned 2 finish it ... especially my event... wa haha....so i just slp now... or else 2molo i will be like panda... wa haha

2006-09-23T02:57:00.000+08:00

seroiusly i think i quite abit depressed.... i saw her profile 2dae... hmm quite a pleasant girl... hav look , hav figure ... wad else i can sae about her??? basically i lost 2 her in everything... i nt trying 2 compare both ... is just tat i find myself lost at tis moment... to mi... she is like an angel i am just a devil...i just don understand y pp like 2 compare mi n her... well mabe becasue of nature ....i noe i shouldn't write tis at all... but i just cannot find anybody 2 talk 2.....so lets be it......4get about wad has happen...i just ned some space....

now i just wish tat my health condition is gd... tats all...

in your eyes i might be strong....
but i am tryg hard... haha

2006-09-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

2dae i reach hm quite early lo... after my training... i am damn hungry... but nvm la...i just wondering y yesterdae i cannot update my blog..... damn it... wa hahai went changi with royston n ting... i suppose 2 go shopping with him tis afternnon... but end up i lazy 2 go out....went training in e end... 2daes training i think abit slack ... mabe casue coach nt there ba....i realli hope i won play in e ivp... i wish i could just step out of e team... i just don noe y i so negetative.....well... 27 sept here i come

2006-09-20T04:39:00.000+08:00

i nv sleep well tis few daes...i just don noe y.... but nvm... i just came back from jeremy chalet...well...i kanna alot of flour man....i alreadi told them cam girl r nt involve de...but still kanna sur bo by pp... haha.... after washing up i straight away take cab went hm...i was suppose 2 meet up with royston de... but end up nv...casue tat time i still at chalet...i damn tired now...i think i should end here as i hav 2 work 2molo

2006-09-19T04:29:00.000+08:00

hey ........i back hm....where did i went just now????haha... i reach hm after my training...my knee cap so pain.... shit lo... but i still sneaked out of hm n went out with royston... wahhaa.... we both gt nth 2 do so intend 2 come out...we both went 2 look 4 siow ting... then go jalan kayu there slack...anddrove st back 2 her work place....haiz... we both ended up at my place there... chat till now then reach hm... ar... i still don noe wad i wanna take 4 gems 2dae

2006-09-18T03:52:00.000+08:00

hey.... i am back ... guess wad??? i still chating till late tis night... well... can i sae morning???morning everyone... i feeling abit lazy... haha....i am thinking about alot of things.... ar....i also don noe... i just feel tat my sch gonna starts soon... ar... luckly nv fail my exam.. if nt gonna repeat my module... a bit de sianz... gems coming i don noe wad 2 chose le...

2006-09-17T02:23:00.000+08:00

hey sae sae sae i finally back from all my camp.... wa haha.... i din realli sleep well pass few daes la...hmm e most happening one is e night walk which make mi feel so weird casue i hav night blindnesss ma... wa haha... hmm... i tis camp i knew quite a number of friends......some is alreadi noe last time le....i can sae tat tis camp quite o.k la...some pp still sae i pri 6 kids lo... omg...i get cramp on e first daes izzit lo.... then end up pp help mi out....i learnt alot of things from tis camp tat everthing must be paitent...hmm... well ... wad i hav 2 do now is sleep n sleep... i am simply too tired le....one soup pom clap.....nth....i just being a bit hyper

2006-09-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

6**9**06 till 8**9**06
hey pp i alreadi 2 daes back from e cruise... yeah... hmm well... gyl camp 4 tis year is a bit relax... but then still shedule abit tight ya...we hav 2 rush 4 every meals... haha.. quite a number of gd food around... haha... to mi is such a waste casue i don eat much during buffet....well inside my group i am e onli girl na and my group leader is aron... but to my suprise ... my group quite fun la... haha.. we do alot of acting all tat...we even go snorking... hmm.. tisd camp let mi noe more of e pp... however there r still some pp who don realli interact with us... i don noe izzzit they don like to play with us or simply they don care... haha

9**9**06
talking about yesterdae ... i went boat quey 2 drink with my ex class mate... haha... i onli drink 2 cup onli.. tats like... abit little lei... but then i try nt 2 drink so much casue most of e guy alreadi drunk... haha... hmm well... my dad ask mi if i wanna go hmm then he drove mi back... then i told him 2 pick mi up.. just then i saw ming feng at tcc...he was working there...i almost forgot...haha... but then my dad nv scold mi.. but he sae try nt 2 drink so much... casue i am a girl... haha... he insisted on mi going eat supper with him but i told him tat my face damn red...ask he 2 buy back 4 mi he did buy back .... but i think he somehow or rather he also go drinking ba....

10**9**06
wad i wanna update 2dae is tat some pp intend 2 steal mu clothes... he alreadi broke e ink tag... i was so scared man...actually wanna call security but end up cannot find... tat person quite nice looking lei... but i don understand y he must steal....well..i rush hm 2night just 2 pack all e things 4 2molo camp... oh ya... redaers.. i will be away for another 4 daes camp tats e ice camp... bb

thanks 4 evrything.. hope i realli enjoy...

2006-08-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

hmm... i realli don noe how explain everything......i realli damn sad.... i just don understand certain things.... i realli 2 be positive but i just cannot clam down....1stly is my sim card get cut ...i don understand y.... secondly is i kanna scolded by her, she sae i nv pack counter...n nv paste price tag... i think there is realli mis communication between mi n her lo... but i had enough of her.... one word 2 discribe her 'sux'.... i don noe who 2 turn 2 everytime... last time i still can turn up 2 a certain pp... now... i feel so navie 2 believe in pp tat think they will help mi...all sae y i am a simple minded person...ya la... evrything my fault la.... i don wish 2 explain anything.. i will still go on with my life... i don wish 2 cry anymore...

people are veri dangerous in some area....
however there are also gd pp around...
but there are those type which ganna extinct soon.....
i still will wait 4 angel to guide mi instead of devil apporacing mi....